The last two weeks have been utterly frustrating. Having gotten sick, I couldn’t do anything beneficial for my body. I was diagnosed with a sinus infection and I really didn’t think it would have such a huge impact on me; it didn’t when I was 19. Of course, I am learning that my body really isn’t what it was when I was 19. I could handle anything. I could recover faster from whatever issue I was having. Now that I’m in my 30’s I’m still not “old” but things are just different.
When I exercise I’m finding out that I may not be able to do a particular routine unless I make modifications. It’s kind of frustrating because I don’t feel like I am at the age where I need to do that, but my body says otherwise. The challenge now is paying attention to my body and making the modifications that will still work the muscle group being targeted. When done accurately, any exercise, modified or not, will build muscle and burn calories.
After having just recovered from a respiratory illness I am finding I have to slow down what I was doing. There is no way I can handle a workout that I did two weeks ago. About all I can handle at this point is a walk with a few hills or short jogs thrown in. If I have to work then I have to dial it back even more if I want to have enough energy to get through the shift. This is beyond frustrating! I want my energy back! I know it will get there but how long is it going to take?
All I can say is I can’t wait until I’m normal again. This has been a difficult year (September until now) with many speed bumps. I would give anything to go back to a year ago when I was kicking butt and taking names. Of course, I can’t go back, all I can do is to go forward. There are always going to be situations that are completely out of my hands, life does happen. I have also come to the realization that as much as I want to prevent it, there is going to be bad years. The last two years have been a dream. I’ve lost a ton of weight, felt amazing, and had a lot of confidence. Not every year is going to be like that, it’s unrealistic to think that every year is going to be amazing. As my husband has to keep reminding me, “this is a marathon, not a sprint.” I didn’t start this journey to be done with it in two or three years. I started this journey knowing it would take the rest of my life. Some people have to deal with alcoholism or some other addiction. My struggle is with food and all I can do is one day at a time.
Here are a few verses I’ve found that have helped me stay motivated:
Let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Hebrews 12:1
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.